How long the screams will last? How long til cease the pain? Swear I can see a future, but I just don't know how to be there. Hating in the name of love. War in the name of loneliness. Afraid to try, but I cannot run. Afraid to stay, but I cannot escape. Feels like I'm stuck in this game of joy and pain, trying to figure out how to end this suffering. What if I try my best? What if I try my best and fail? Forgive and understand. Some words we always seem to forget. What if I open scars? What if I hurt myself again? Things will be different this time. But different things can't always win. Feels like I'm stuck in this game of joy and pain. Feels like I'm stuck in this endless suffering.